which one would you prefer;
be a history maker, or end up being history?
you choose.
your life is at your hand; and the choice is up to you.
you, choose your own ending.
: choice. May 3, 2009
farewell. May 2, 2009
farewell is sad and bad. hurts.
it is a must; since if there is a meeting, so is a farewell.
everyone in this world face farewell fearfully–
as long as they own their beloved ones.
farewell is closing, it is the stop sign.
but farewell itself had made by a good intention.
by someone making this word–whoever that man was,
farewell contains best.
fare thee WELL. GOOD bye. SELAMAT tinggal.
they are goods in bads. as a heaven in hell;
a light in darkness.
farewell is sad and bad. hurts;
on the other hand, it is well, good, and selamat.
(:
oh yeah, what a thought~
OH what a long time! May 2, 2009
yeah, i know recently i’ve been very busy to fix this blog,
i am terribly sorry for that.
but it is the time for fixing, right? 
i will try my best! i have been preparing the post for this blog,
this wordpress blog. kk
a few review~ December 26, 2008
at few days, we are getting onto new year.
new year is my favorite moment among all moments held in a year.
it is the time for me to think.
to reflect.
and to start new things.
at every night of december, i’ll count the days and feel pleased about that.
i will remember things happened in my life for the last year,
or maybe the few past years.
how is my life? how is my love? my friend, my church, my school?
what were things that made me feel glad?
what were things and words that made me feel really sorry and sad?
i will sit back and think about them.
and that is the way i’ll do it right now.
and my next turn is 2008.
2008, is my worst year ever.
in the first time of my life, i felt emptiness.
i had never felt something like that before.
my life before were always full of passion.
even though there were lot of tears, sadness, even anger on it, but it never got empty.
nevertheless, this year my heart was full of emptiness, lies, and fake.
no true love spread out to someone.
i hate this year. this year is sucks and it is totally true.
i am ready for 2009, the year i’ve been waiting for so long.
the year i’ll get in into my year in university.
i will be in new environment.
new friends. new experiences.
though i love to be around my friends in high school, i don’t feel any true love.
i need to find other friends.
i have to find them.
though my best friend is still there and i still can talk everything to him,
but sometimes i can feel we were underpressure one to another.
you know, boys and girls things.
i like to express my love and my friendship to him, but he, as many boys usually does, express his feelings hardly.
and… sometimes it makes me pissed off.
maybe he really loves me like i do to him as a best friend,
but he can’t show it to me.
and that is the way i can’t find such a needed friendship in him.
err, don’t get me wrong, i really love him and trust anything into his hands,
but i just need more friends who can give me more warmth and cares.
and i’ll start to find it in 2009.
oh.
and also i’ll try to find a lover in the next year.
i have been tired, sick of loneliness.
so… welcome, dear 2009.
September 20, 2008
okay. starting the new post.
…
I JUST WANT TO TELL THE WORLD,
i miss him so damn much.
if i had just one more day,
i will tell you how much that i miss you since you’ve been away.
-christina aguilera, hurts-
i really don’t understand myself.
September 20, 2008
OMG OMG.
i and my friend were sitting together and playing our laptops.
as usual i was browsing my forums and not take attention to what’s my friend doing.
but SUDDENLY,
my friend played a song in her apple.
what kind of song? i know you’ll ask that.
TO WHERE YOU ARE song. josh groban.
nice, nice, nice. really nice.
and my eyes became wet suddenly. OMG.
welcome back to me. :D September 18, 2008
very long time no see!
i just try not to too stick with my blogs and internet,
and from now on it’s good for me, i think.
well i think i’m not in mood to take care of my blogs anymore,
but just see. maybe either next month or next week or next year i’ll get my mood back.
i was in the hectic week before,
thought and chose the best university i want to get in.
my school offered me uph academic scholarships,
but i think i don’t want to go to uph for my study.
and yaah, even though my dream university is <b>university of new south wales</b>,
but unsw was already out from my list. that is so out of reach.
so i’ve decided faculty of psychology universitas indonesia.
but yaah everyone knows how hard to get to ui,
so i will choose sanatadharma instead if i can’t pass the entry test of ui.
wish me luck in every step i’ll do.
p.s. just tell you something that is not important,
on the next four days i’ll celebrate my seventeenth birthday.
muhahahk!
fighting! July 24, 2008
last tuesday i went to taman ismail marzuki, watched sendakala.
a play based on a sundanese novel.
and that was great. tell us the audience about indonesia,
how corruption had blown over the indonesia’s goverment,
etc etc.
then after the show there was a discussion, a forum to talk about sendakala itself,
and also about corruption.
and one thing i remember from that discussion is words from someone (i don’t remember his name, gosh) :
corruption has done by so many people,
so the fight against it must done by many people too!
in indonesian maybe it’ll helps.
he said “korupsi itu dilakukan berjamaah, jadi melawannya juga harus berjamaah!”
wow. i felt amazing while he was saying it.
i’ll keep hoping and keep trying to fight against corruption.
YEAAH!
excitinggg :D July 21, 2008
tomorrow i will go to institut kesenian jakarta!
for watching the drama titled OKB. my school’s theater team will be there tomorrow and we will watch the drama!
exciting excitingggg
so that’s update for today. (not important, i know it, i know it)
but it’s okay lah. better for me to share everything than not to share.
haaaa. ciao, i’m signing off!
today’s update July 20, 2008
today at the service the worship leader asked us to sing together the song for nation.
and what song did he ask to sing?
Speak to Nation. tereteretrtereerrreeet! i miss that song. one year ago i sang that song together with others indonesian youth and i think that was the very best moment for us.
i like today’s service!
